tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post683451042157736806..comments2023-10-22T10:31:09.224-04:00Comments on Just BEing John-Michael: Straight TalkJohn-Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comBlogger21125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-79155436908873049332008-04-29T17:14:00.000-04:002008-04-29T17:14:00.000-04:00Crystal, my Darling, we share an obvious kinship i...<B><I>Crystal</B></I>, my Darling, we share an obvious kinship in temperament and core aspects of valuing and appreciating life. You have articulated some of our rich harmonies, and your understanding is gratefully embraced.<BR/><BR/>I do, so love You.John-Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-69853454564988473042008-04-29T14:33:00.000-04:002008-04-29T14:33:00.000-04:00Are the chest pains just due to stress? Hope so, y...Are the chest pains just due to stress? Hope so, you take GOOD care of yourself! Hear me??? <BR/><BR/>Your right, most women are unwilling to accept someone elses personality, in the way they speak bluntly or to the point. My feelings are like yours but, a little more colorful. Lets cut the crap and get right down to it. Here's what I want for my life and if you can't or wont accept that, move on....Now, how come I can say and feel anything in my head but not be more assertive with the guy i'm with?LOL! I'M WORKING ON IT!!<BR/><BR/>"For, the simply fact is that I have no interest in laying up benefits for my Self … because I have no interest in the continuation of my Self. I have no desire to be here (in this form … alive) tomorrow. I have had no such interest for a good many years now. I have gone to sleep with the spoken and unspoken desire to not wake the next morning for many, many years."<BR/><BR/>I use to feel like that to John-Michael. I wanted the ULTIMATE love of someone but time and time again was walked away from or not good enough, special enough or worth taking risks for. So, I do understand those feelings of just being "tired" of being here. The dispair I felt from you when reading that paragraph...<BR/><BR/>Sometimes I wonder why we have to work so hard to be happy, to get through each day being positive for others when inside we feel so negative at times. And lonely. I see all my friends in love or happily married and I wonder why i'm not loveable material too.<BR/><BR/>But, then I quit the negative thinking, put myself in a better light or situation and things really arent so bad. I read what Jen is going through and it rips my heart in two that she even has to go through what she's facing. Then I look at my own life and feel so ungrateful for who I am and what I have in my own little world. She is a fighter and has the strength of SO many in that little soul of hers...She really does humble me.<BR/><BR/>I understand what you mean when you talk about feeling emotionally drained. It's my nature to be one big ball of emotion. It's always a constant in my life. Always has, always will. I think it's how I percieve the gift of intense emotion though, that it can either be a blessing and help others or it can be a curse and hurt my Self if I allowed it to. Make sense?<BR/><BR/>As for these two women...my opinion only...not good enough. So don't "settle" for temporary pleasure. If your heart is anything like mine it would do more harm than good to your Self. That's something I realised with the Matt thing. I AM worth the very best. I've spent my whole life being submissive and was "lead" by others, changing who I was to please them. No more. I am worth it and so are you. I think one of my lifes "lessons" is to discover the full meaning of patience. Wouldn't you agree? <BR/><BR/>Chin up dear friend, many are with you when I say that you are loved;o)Crystalhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06561491547226174929noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-49397744433689516152008-04-29T04:20:00.000-04:002008-04-29T04:20:00.000-04:00Lime, My darling, I will return to your posting, r...<B><I>Lime</B></I>, My darling, I will return to your posting, re-read, allow the "place" to return, and Email you with the words of yesterday, with today's "enhancements.<BR/><BR/>This after I complete my job (that I am NOW running late for [I know ... but loving You IS my priority!])John-Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-82855771645106611742008-04-29T04:16:00.000-04:002008-04-29T04:16:00.000-04:00Isn't it strange how we have old "treasures" broug...Isn't it strange how we have old "treasures" brought up from our emotional/mental archives, <B><I>Sandi</B></I>?! Your "take a deep breath and let it out slowly" gave me immediate recall of the USMC rifle range in Parris Island and standing ... sling wrapped around my 19 year-old arm, sighting on that distant target ... "take a deep breath and let it out slowly" ... squeeze. [smile] Omigosh! Such a long time ago!<BR/><BR/>I am comfortably well in mind/body/and spirit, Dear Friend. I thank you for your care ... and love You more for your BEing who you are.John-Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-12624935922488490532008-04-28T22:59:00.000-04:002008-04-28T22:59:00.000-04:00I hope this finds you feeling more connected, the ...I hope this finds you feeling more connected, the power being restored...take a deep breath and let it out slowly...all will be well with you, I'm sure.<BR/>SandiSandi McBridehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09033518416111957858noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-4171057712678634302008-04-28T13:32:00.000-04:002008-04-28T13:32:00.000-04:00dangit...now i'm all choked up myself at such a wa...dangit...now i'm all choked up myself at such a warm and lovely welcome. i am just tickled pink that a piece about my grammy would inspire a piece of music and if there is anyway you'd be willing and able to share it somehow it would do my heart good. no pressure though, i know some folks prefer to keep things a bit private as they create.<BR/><BR/>anyway, in case you are willing or able...<BR/>mountainlime(at)gmail(dot)comlimehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17259558876349307173noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-19419265287814338962008-04-28T10:57:00.000-04:002008-04-28T10:57:00.000-04:00My newest and most fresh Gift from the Giver of th...My newest and most fresh Gift from the Giver of the best Gifts, <B><I>Lime</B></I>! How you have impacted my day is immeasurable. Upon my initial reading of your sincerely thoughtful and meaning-filled comment ... I have gone to your profile ... read your "<A HREF="http://houseoflime.blogspot.com/2008/04/magic.html" REL="nofollow">Magic<BR/></A>" piece ... dried away a few tears ... jotted a few notes of a song inspired by your piece ... added you to my blog's side-bar to allow my Friends to know a new and marvelously genuine woman ... and back here to write this note to You. You, obviously, touched a beautiful chord in my heart that allows me to unabashedly Love You.<BR/><BR/>Thank You!John-Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-22608572620851796312008-04-28T10:48:00.000-04:002008-04-28T10:48:00.000-04:00Joni, My Precious, when I wrote this bit, it was i...<B><I>Joni</B></I>, My Precious, when I wrote this bit, it was in the awareness that everyone would echo your "I never thought I would hear you say that." But if I allowed You and anyone else to continue in not knowing that corner of my ever-present Self, i would be practicing "deceit by omission" and that would deny others who struggle with the very same daily challenge, an insight to, and perhaps an encouragement in, my own devices and mechanisms for dealing with that daily load. As always, I have only my integrity to offer ... and I will not compromise that. So, "it am, what it am!" (I do like the thought of your "sit your little fanny down and we'd have a l-o-n-g talk" though! That would be very nice, indeed [impish grin])<BR/><BR/>Thank You, Dearest of Friends. I rejoice in the heavenly Gift of Loving You!John-Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-5179293670870419022008-04-28T10:37:00.000-04:002008-04-28T10:37:00.000-04:00Debi, My Darlin', please forgive my tardiness in r...<B><I>Debi</B></I>, My Darlin', please forgive my tardiness in responding ... but laying this one "out there" <I>REALLY</I> did me in. It is still a bit tough coming back to even your gentle and caring comments. Please rest in the truth that I have no <I>intent</I> to willfully <I>not</I> "be here tomorrow." It is simply an abiding truth that I have had not so much as a faint <I>desire</I> to be here tomorrow ... far many, many years. But, you can be sure, as long as The One in charge of such matters keeps serving up new days ... i will capitalize on them and make more of them than any sensible man would expect to.[smile] Like I said earlier "I like fun!" (and I like making the whole ridiculous deal fun for everyone else in the process! [grin])<BR/><BR/>Thank you, Sweet One, for making your Self available for me to Love You!John-Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-72858241610377998252008-04-28T08:50:00.000-04:002008-04-28T08:50:00.000-04:00visiting here from david's. i have been by a few ...visiting here from david's. i have been by a few other times as well i now realize.<BR/><BR/>i am sorry for the pain and frustration you are feeling. you cultivate a gentleness in this space and seem to have a real sincerity. it's so odd how the things that once attract a person to us seem to later repel them but it seems to so often be the case. i do wish for you the love and intimacy you desire. may the kindness you give be returned to you multiplied.limehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17259558876349307173noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-75529729429805447702008-04-27T19:14:00.000-04:002008-04-27T19:14:00.000-04:00I surely am glad that You, My Dear`CathDaughter, w...I surely am glad that You, My Dear`<B><I>CathDaughter</B></I>, wouldn't have me "any other way" than the open and vulnerable that I have elected to be ... for I entertain no thought of change. (Kinda like You just as You are as well!)<BR/><BR/>Lovin' You ...John-Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-90252256972535465012008-04-27T18:56:00.000-04:002008-04-27T18:56:00.000-04:00Woah JDM!I knew you were hurting somewhere and som...Woah JDM!<BR/><BR/>I knew you were hurting somewhere and somehow. Don't focus on the negative. You are worth far more! And there is a time for everything as others have said. This was just not the right time, or the right people. <BR/><BR/>When we are open and honest with people, it makes us vulnerable. We show our weak spots in showing our sensitivity. I wouldn't have you any other way.<BR/><BR/>Unless you use my full name on this blog! Then you ARE in trouble! ;0)<BR/><BR/>You are loved. Know it and feel it.Cathhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01247084030899971480noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-73208569517180268152008-04-26T21:50:00.000-04:002008-04-26T21:50:00.000-04:00just joni, you said it best.just joni, you said it best.debihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02476178270999437374noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-31950835019651003232008-04-26T21:32:00.000-04:002008-04-26T21:32:00.000-04:00John-Michael, take a step back, take a deep breath...John-Michael, take a step back, take a deep breath and let love happen...it will...and it will be with someone you haven't looked for, someone who crept in when you weren't expecting it...you have a gift, a sensitive approach to BEing and for all that entails, it means you have a responsibilty to your romantic self to ease up and wait for that worthy person who can reciprocate with sincerity and appreciation. Not wanting to wake up? I never thought I would hear you say that and if you lived closer I'd sit your little fanny down and we'd have a l-o-n-g talk about that statement...<BR/>I'm sorry you hurt, but somewhere there is someone for you and you are just going to have to be patient. <BR/>Ok, I'm done...now take inventory of all the people who love you, hug your son, look in his eyes and know that there is a reason for everything and everything has its time...<BR/>many, many hugs,<BR/>JoniJoni https://www.blogger.com/profile/01471677167011145245noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-85268756637567647252008-04-26T20:51:00.000-04:002008-04-26T20:51:00.000-04:00Oh Dear John, This makes me so sad.It is true that...Oh Dear John, This makes me so sad.It is true that when you are open and honest that people have a hard time. I love the way you speak to everyone like a family member. I have felt very much like yourself in the past. I didn't wish to continue to be here either.But God has blessed you in a mighty way. You have a big loving heart. You have all these people here who really love you. Please be here tomorrow and the next day too. my love to you, debidebihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02476178270999437374noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-55006218021672962582008-04-26T19:23:00.000-04:002008-04-26T19:23:00.000-04:00Fir your consistent generosity of gentle Spirit, I...Fir your consistent generosity of gentle Spirit, I am constantly grateful, Dear <B><I>San</B></I> (be glad that I do not know your full name because I would be using it right now in honor of your full character and nature. [respectful and admiring smile]) i refer to "structure only to demonstrate the reality of a permanent "home" that i "construct in my Heart when I choose to love someone ... and I never dismantle that person's permanent place in my Being. It is always there ... ready to be re-inhabited whenever or if ever they wish to "come home." Those who I love always and forever have a place of their own in my Life. This is my chosen way (always has been.) <BR/><BR/>Some of the "homes" have been elaborately built from many varied experiences shared whilst others are alway a "work in progress." But my "conceptual mind" uses this "device" to fit the parts of my relationships into a recognizable place for my comfort in understanding. I hope that I have made some sense of that now.<BR/><BR/>And You, Dear <B><I>San</B></I> even have "reserved parking," [grin], 'cause I always want to encourage your visits with me. I love You!John-Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-7813430032593149422008-04-26T19:12:00.000-04:002008-04-26T19:12:00.000-04:00Aimie(I am feeling more intimate and personal than...<B><I>Aimie</B></I>(I am feeling more intimate and personal than nick-names do justice to right now [has to do with Your dear closeness to my Heart]), my darling Friend ... You caress my Spirit with the gentleness of your kind caring and sweet thoughtfulness. I am humbled and grateful.<BR/><BR/>Loving you is a privilege that I enjoy cherishing.John-Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-59516945776266799952008-04-26T19:05:00.000-04:002008-04-26T19:05:00.000-04:00My Dear and enduring Friend Tammy, You had better ...My Dear and enduring Friend <B><I>Tammy</B></I>, You had better run when I see you in the warehouse in the morning ... 'cause you're gettin' a big ol' John-Michael kiss for sure! Thank you, kind-hearted One!<BR/><BR/>I have loved You for more years than either of us care to count.John-Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12301981965656607401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-18801712471200417642008-04-26T13:52:00.000-04:002008-04-26T13:52:00.000-04:00I'm so sorry, John-Michael, that your heart is ach...I'm so sorry, John-Michael, that your heart is aching. You speak of love as a "Structure." That sounds a little, well, structured. I believe, like AIMS said, the right one comes along when you're no longer looking. There's magic and fluidity and surprise and then you claim it and build from there. But it's not always a finely honed work of art. More like a kid's slap-happy messy fingerpaint. Or a mud pie that somehow turns into a castle, a wonky one.<BR/><BR/>You know all of this of course. I just find it so hard to be quiet. Forgive me. You are in my prayers. I agree with Tammy: you are loved and the world would be a far sadder place without you in it. You're part of the magic that makes the mud pie of life!Sanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18245301334922883500noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-30537435707852192942008-04-26T11:50:00.000-04:002008-04-26T11:50:00.000-04:00JM - it is obvious that the power above has someth...JM - it is obvious that the power above has something else in mind for you. And that something will come tripping down the lane and fall squarely in your lap - and laugh.<BR/><BR/>These women were not the ones - that is quite obvious. As they say - the right one comes along when you aren't even looking.....aimshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12685252628734838159noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25195308.post-50971447231372376532008-04-26T11:39:00.000-04:002008-04-26T11:39:00.000-04:00Michael, I know how you feel about being alone, bu...Michael, I know how you feel about being alone, but just know that you brighten my day when we have the chance to talk and you always know what to say when I'm feeling down.<BR/><BR/>Know you are loved and that the world would be a far sadder place without you in it. <BR/><BR/>Love Tammy.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com